Venting

I have to get this out.

I feel sad, relieved, apprehensive, self-disgust, and frustrated at the same time.

I know, right?

I'm trying to meditate. Trying to remind myself that it's not that big a deal. I need to chill the eff out. Probably doesn't help that the heat outside caused me to have a headache.

I'm watching flowers bloom on Netflix. And after I'm done this post, probably will watch that YouTube clip on a map of the known universe. That always calms me down.

Will I ever see the finish line on this editing journey? How do people not lose their goddamn minds doing this? It's so many words. So many fucking words. And it all came out of me. How the fuck did so many words get typed out by my own fingers?