Moments of peace

Okay, so today is off to a great start.


Woke up at 8 a.m. Didn't get out of bed till 8:25. Meditated for 25 minutes. Which by the way...I think it's getting easier. The first two weeks were awful. It felt like time was just trickling by in slow drops. Today did not feel like that. It just zoomed by.

Why do I meditate?

I've been searching for peace my whole life. I traveled, I read, I worked. I kept looking in all the wrong places. Then I realized that there was no one person who was going to fix this but me. I had to look inward. Boy, inward. What a mess.

"Control your mind or it will control you." Budhha.

As I get older, this phrase kinda haunts me. I want to have control over my mind because it's becoming more and more unruly when I don't keep tabs on it. I can go down dark paths without meaning to.

Anyways, yeah, meditation today was fast. It seemed fast. I don't know how often I reach that place of inner peace. Most of the time, I am trying to focus on blocking out the incessant chatter in my head. I'm really annoying.

I have two chapters to write and two chapters to read. I can do that. I have dentist appt and another MD appt. I should be free rest of the day to tackle on what I need to do.