Can't I defect from this species?

I have very little hope for the human race. 

I often wonder when Mother Nature is going to unleash her fury on us. I thought Ebola was her way of doing it a la Black Plague, but I think we outwitted her. 

I have been so upset recently about all things human. We are awful to the other creatures of this world. I mean, really, awful. We are a selfish and entitled species and I'm sort of ashamed to be part of it. 

That Lychee/Dog festival thing in South China? Yeah, don't google images for that shit. It will fuck you up in the head. They say they kill the animals humanely, but those pictures tell me a different story. I can almost hear their screams. I can't think about it without crying. Those poor things were tortured. They really were. They boiled them alive. They taped their mouth shut and used a blowtorch on them. My God, they ripped them apart. There was this one dog, you could tell it was so afraid and terrified. I just...sorry, I'm crying. It's so sad. It's just so sad.

I really love animals. I think people who are cruel to them should be put down or something. Something is broken inside of them if they hurt animals. I really believe that. It's like a respect for life, you know? You don't treat life like that. Especially to creatures who aren't vindictive and hold revenge in their hearts. 

Then there was the lion thing with Cecil. God. Goddamn. I just, that awful man. He killed other things too, you know. Why would you kill a lion? Why? I don't get it. I'm so angry and upset.

And last, but not least, the recent rise of the slaughter to elephants for their tusks. 

That one hurts my spirit. I saw the images. I felt compelled to paint a painting that was horrific. I couldn't get it out of my head.  They kill herds of elephants, something like 20 to 30 at a time. They chop off their tusks and then just leave them or burn them. The babies are orphans. And they sometimes get captured and tortured. Other times, they are rescued but to no avail. They die soon after because of their grief from seeing their family killed. 

I am crying because I am helpless here. I am just one human. I don't have billions of money to fix this. I have a voice but I'm not sure it's going to be loud enough. There are lots of voices on Twitter and FB and other social media platforms. 

If I was to comment on this in one of the many comment sections, some asshole were invariably connect it to another social platform. Ex: "You're so upset by this but this is the same thing as Planned Parenthood, blah blah blah." Sigh* I don't want to deal with those idiots who think humans can only be upset on one thing. 

All I can do is show my grief through art. Via words and paint. That's really it. I don't have any other ammunition other than that. 

I will paint. I will write. I will grieve.